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Oct. 21st, 2018 | 10:42 pm

ponyphonic — Shy Heart

Be yourself, they say, but be assertive
Hold your ground but do not be unkind
I have sought to be both lamb and lion
Heartache is the thing I tend to find
Can I only have what I can capture
Will I be unheard unless I shout
Clamor overwhelms me and I wonder
What is there to be so loud about?

Many are the musings of my shy heart
Though precious few are spoken out aloud
How I wish to wrap them up in confidence and style
And send them out like magic through the crowd
Then everyone would listen and I wouldn't be afraid
I wouldn't shrink away and disappear
I don't want them to worship me or care that much at all
I only want to know they know I'm here

I can wear a mask of pluck and power
But it never says what I intend
Words become like scissors in my keeping
And friendships are so difficult to mend
I don't want to shout above the babble
I'm not even sure what I would say
Maybe just, "Excuse me, could we maybe
Be a little quieter today?"

Many are the musings of my shy heart
Though precious few are spoken out aloud
How I wish to wrap them up in confidence and style
And send them out like magic through the crowd
Then everyone would listen and I wouldn't be afraid
I wouldn't shrink away and disappear
I don't want them to worship me or care that much at all
I only want to know they know I'm here

Part of me has things she wants and wishes
Part of me is worried she is wrong
Part of me is busy masquerading
As a girl whose pieces get along
I don't mean to come across as distant
I don't think it adds to my mystique
I just find it difficult conversing
And think an awful lot before I speak

Many are the musings of my shy heart
Though precious few are spoken out aloud
How I wish to wrap them up in confidence and style
And send them out like magic through the crowd
Then everyone would listen and I wouldn't be afraid
I wouldn't shrink away and disappear
I don't want them to worship me or care that much at all
I only want to know they know I'm here


Artist: unknown, but possibly illuminatiums

I've been feeling like Fluttershy a lot lately.

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moonhare

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from: mondhasen
date: Oct. 23rd, 2018 09:43 am (UTC)
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I've been feeling like Fluttershy a lot lately.

Bittersweet? Is this SAD or are you feeling lonely? Autumn, as an ‘ending,’ starts me to musing over the past year(s) and what may lie ahead.

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Schnee

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from: schnee
date: Oct. 23rd, 2018 10:43 am (UTC)
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Bittersweet, yes. And both sad (or blue) and lonely (somewhat) — also often feeling somewhat overwhelmed, like I have to wear that "mask of pluck and power" that the song mentions, all day, every day, and I don't know if it's really "me".

The chorus of the song also speaks to me: "many are the musings of my shy heart, though precious few are spoken out aloud". It isn't necessarily that I have noone to share my thoughts with; but like Fluttershy, I find it difficult to express myself. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve (like Rainbow Dash would, say), and I don't open up to people easily.

"I don't mean to come across as distant; I don't think it adds to my mystique. I just find it difficult conversing, and think an awful lot before I speak" — that's very "me", too.

Oh well. What can you do, eh?

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